Thursday, April 29, 2004
The Last Post?
Well this might be the last, because I've lost things to talk about, and I think this last thing I'd like to mention is a good note to end on. Let's just say my time here at Florida State came to its perfect synthesis tonight. Well I should mention the bad first, kinda makes it a bit from perfect, but I'd say it's the closest I've ever gotten. Chandler and I are not on very good terms at the moment, think mostly because we've been spending too much time together. It happened with Kyle awhile back, but then it was different, then it was a mutual separation on good terms, he and I just decided not to talk for a good 3 months. With chandler though, it was a fight, both of us equally angered at the other, and who's to say which one of us is right. I beleive I am in the right, but of course so does he, and truthfully no one else can decide that fact. I think it was bound to happen though, I'm just surprised the two of us lasted this long, perhaps if we had made it home things would have been alright, but who knows. I'm sure we'll forgive eachother later, but not yet. Now for the good news. I wrote a post awhile back about this girl I like, and like is a bit of an understatement. I had a crush from the day I met her, even before I knew her name, back in August. I was a bit strategic about getting to know her, I hate to talk about it as if were a war or something, but it kinda was. Getting to know her I began to feel some tension between us, but I thought maybe it was just me being crazy, the past has taught me to check myself and not rush into things in situations like this. Low and behold though tonight, I found she had felt the same. I'll set the scene. She leaves in the morning, so we decided to hangout one last time before she leaves. I just had McDonalds and walked over to her place. We hungout there for awhile trying to figure out what to do, and when we couldnt, we decided to take a walke. it was a beautiful night. So we wandered aimlessly for a little bit, and decided to go back to my room, which she had never seen before, and I had been hyping up for sometime. I rearranged my room last week because we were supposed to put our furniture back in the arrangement it was when we arrived. I really like it this way though, I tweeked my room for a day and its so perfect now. Anyways we came to my place and jsut before we got here a friend called and said he was trying to get a small party going and that he'd call us back in a little bit when it was going. WE got up to my room, and I showed her my cool bubbly lamp and my bass vibrating bed ( I put my sub under my bed so it was vibrate nicely when the bass pumped up) and I showed her this cool program on my computer called milkdrop. It's this plug-in for winamp that makes a visual that is sooo badass. Imagine windows media played visuals x 100, and x100 is no exaggeration. Anyways I put on some music, then put Moby - Everloving on, talking about how that song expanded mine and Chandler's mind one time. He'll know what I'm talking about if you wanna ask him about it. Anyway she said "Can I be completely straight forward and frank with you?" "Of course," I said. Then she proceeded to tell that she had wanted to kiss me for sometime. SEeing the "no fucking way" expression on my face she started to explain why, but I stopped her and said "Me too". Then it happened, and it was goood. Afterwards my roommate came in and we headed out to the party. We hungout there until about 4 in the morning then went back to her place. We met her cool roommate Melissa and our friend Collure there watching Robin Hood, I took one last picture of the three of them and started to the door to leave. Kate followed me outside, small talk the wholeway, until we got outside. Then it was "Well, enough beating around the bush", and again a really, really, really good good-bye kiss. I nearly screamed as I got out of sight. Man what a great time. Like I said, a ner perfect synthesis. Definetly a good note to go out on. Later.
This thought disintegrated at 5:37 AM
